Below are the 13 most recent journal entries recorded in xoxemilysmanxox's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, August 4th, 2004
10:23 pm	Well! I had a really good day today, i woke up and then i sat in a truck while my dad ran some tracker and listened to Atreyu, that was kinda gay but then after that i went to emilys at 11:00 am theis morning and we laid down for a long time, i was sooo tired, lol, but at like 1 or 2 we walked to mcdonalds, it took so long, damn, it was hot too, ya then we ate there and she called her mom for a ride, and she said yes, then we got there and laid around for like another 3 hours or so, idk, but then we went to the pool after dinner, that was fun, we were messing w/ her friend ashley by splashing her n stuff and she eventually got in, it was funny!!! then we walked back to her house and it was like 8:40 and her mom said she couldnt give me a ride or something so i called my dad, he was so mad at me, idc, hes over it now so, lol, fuck him!! u no, omg im sooooo fucking in love with this girl, im going crazy, i would do anything for her, i told her that too, well that has limits but u know what i mean, no gay sex or anything twisted, lol, ya but i love her sooo much, i want every one to know it too, ok, well, im leaving so, comment if u will, peace. Current Mood: happy Current Music: As I Lay Dying (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004
6:52 pm	A Poem For Her!!! i cant help to look into those beautiful blue eyes, something tells me to look away but then, something tells me to go closer, close enough to feel her breathing, close enough to embrace her, to try to never let go of her, but i feel sick, i dont even want to move, because as im looking into those eyes, all they show is fear, fear of me, fear that ill break her heart again, i want to cry everytime i see her, if ever there was a way to go back i would but i cant, i cant, it seems as if ill have to keep standing here, and wait for her to draw closer to me, i fear this will be the hardest mission of all, i have given my heart and it feels as if shes given her hand, but i will wait for the time, as long as it takes i will hold that hand till i can hold her heart, for good. i love those beautiful blue eyes! comment on this if u want and ill add u. Current Mood: calm Current Music: Unearth (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 2nd, 2004
11:22 pm	Happy! I had such a great day, ooooo i love emily so damn much, she thinks i deserve better, idk y she thinks that, so i just give her a very weird look every time, idc, i know that i love her and she loves me so thats all that matters, ooooo she was sooooo sexy, so damn sexy today, oooooweeeee! her hair was perfect her clothes were perfect, everything, i mean she is sexy everyday, but damn! u know how that is. well i woke up at chris's house today and chilled till like till 1:00 then i went to emilys house, i hung out at the pool for a little then we went back to the house and layed in her room till like 5:30 the we went to dinner w/ my family and then went to my house, we were in my room w/ my friend and my dad freaked out on us, he made me so pissed off, he was yelling at me which is fine cuz i get that alot then he started yelling at her, i got so fucking mad, i started yelling back at him, he just closed the door, i still am mad, hes a fagget, grrrr! then we just watched tv till her mom got her, she came at like 10:00, then when she got home she called me, and im still talking to her, well comment and ill add u, ok, peace. Current Mood: happy Current Music: From Autumn To Ashes (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 1st, 2004
11:51 pm	Oh Yeah! We had the Sickist band practice today, o we have three whole songs now, yep almost four, im so happy, it was daves birthday today, HAPPY BITHDAY TO HIM!, i love that kid, he's so sick, anyways, kristen and shannon watched us, o and my pal brett came over also, it was way sick, we have a new bassist also, hes daves best friend cory, hes really good at bass, he has a half stack and all that, GREAT day, oo i was so tired i almost forgot to write that, alright, well peace. Current Mood: happy and tired Current Music: My Band (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 31st, 2004
11:49 pm	Well- The Atreyu Show was sick, i had fun, but i didnt dance till like the last 15 mins when lamb of god was playing, man i hated all those damn metal heads and shit there cuz all they do is hit you and shit on purpose, and those damn terror guys, those guys were making fun of aaron though, he was wearing a static lullaby shirt, lol, i dont like them much so it was funny, Every time i die impressed me alot, there guitarist went crazy, it was sick, unearth was amazing also, i love Atreyu so i loved watching them, Ya well me and emily got in a big arguement but then she sent me an email saying some stuff that i am very very happy about, i love her so much, well im going to her house after church, o and someone please comment about me taking my gf to the epicentre on the sixth, i want her to like my kind music w/ out forcing her but i dont know how to do it!, all i said is wear and black shirt w/ jeans so she doesnt look like a prep, shes not a prep if thats what your thinking, well i went to saosin and i just fell in love w/ music but thats just me, anyone have any comments please do so, its bed time so, peace out! Current Mood: tired Current Music: Atreyu (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 29th, 2004
4:32 pm	Im Scared! I was talking to emily last night and we were talking for idk an hour and her neighbor scares her by grabbing her through her window, when told me what happend i started laughing so hard, then i heard him say something like, hey lets go have some fun, and she said ok, then she said steve can i call u back, i was like why where r u going, shes like just to walk around w/ g, i was so pissed, i mean ur gonna get off the phone w/ me and go walk around at 12:30 at night, she said it like it was no big deal right, then i said ok bye, so she calls back in like 45 mins and says hey, and i was about to let the phone ring cuz i thought she was gonna be messed up, but i just picked it up anyways, and i asked what the HELL that was about, and she told me the truth, she said something about alchahol being there but it was beer so g found some liquor and she said no, so that made me happy, but then she said i need to talk to u about something like about 30 mins after we got back on the phone, and i knew she wasnt gonna tell me, cuz thats what she always does, so i asked y she wouldnt tell me, she said that she wanted to tell me in person, and right there alot of bad stuff went through my head, i started askin her soo many questions, she said she not gonna break up w/ me, so i calmed down, then she said its not good tho, then i got scared again, she still hasnt told me, and i didnt even sleep last night, at all, i went to work at 6:30 also, then i got off at 1:00 and went to the mall, i got those pants, they r so sick, and the converse, ya well, im gonna go, o yea Atreyu tommarow, OH YEAH!, alright well, peace. Current Mood: scared Current Music: As I Lay Dying (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 28th, 2004
11:41 pm	Oh Yeah! Chelsea reminded me what band kyle was in, he is in the tyne scabbard, well im getting those awesome pants tommarow along w/ some new converse after work, i got back from my girlfriends at like 9:30, then i sold a 10 watt bass amp that was sitting in my room for 30$ to my neighbor, i had such a good day with emily today, oooo i love her soo much, she gave me a card, a donald duck stuffed animal and the cutist mickey mouse doll, it reminds me of her because it has blue eyes and emily has the most gorgeous blue eyes, holy shit, ive never seen prettier eyes, well, im tired, so im leaving, peace. Current Mood: happy Current Music: Saosin (Comment on this)
6:36 pm	Guess What! i saw emily for the first time in two and a half weeks, we went to the mall and i got some dumb red and black rubber braclet things, and then we went to McDonalds and i got some nuggets and fries, it made me kinda sick afterwords, lol, then i got a cinnabon and she got a pretzel, then we did those 3$ photo booth things, then we went to american eagle outfitters, holy shit the guy there went into the back and got some pants that arent even out in stores yet and he said he holding them for tommarow, there so nice!, o ya his name was kyle, he was in a band, i forget the name right this second but its a local band, and he works at ground zero and he said that my band can play anytime, he was so sick, any ways im at emilys im gonna go, im gonna play her neighbors guitar, peace Current Mood: happy Current Music: norma jean (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 27th, 2004
10:32 pm	Yay!!!!! I just talked to emily, and she's gonna be back in like an hour, im sooo happy, o i love her sooo much!!! im gonna give her the biggest kiss tommarow, o yea, i can see it now. today was nice, i stayed at my drummer chris's house last night, i woke up went to my house, i had no key so i went to my neighbors house and watched kill bill till my dad got home and then we had band practice, im so happy i dont have to deal with aarons shit anymore, o damn, ya but we perfected guitars but we still need vocals and then the song is done, our next song is about daves friend who died in a car crash so its gonna be nice and chill, then the rest of them will be like "kdkvkjbeakjvvbakbvvkdbkvkjdbvlb" all hard and stuff, lol, ya but, thats pretty much it, chris is staying the night here, he's sleeping right now, he dont feel good, so watch out emily im coming for you, lol, aight, peace. Current Mood: cheerful (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 26th, 2004
11:13 pm	Cha-Ching! Well, ummmm lets see, yesterday we kicked out our bassist from our band, aaron, im not going to say why but lets just say it wasn't working out, and we're all glad to be rid of him, in a way. the show today was pretty sick, it was soooooo boring until the pain of dreaming played, damn me, billy and chris did so much hardcore dancing, he got totally fucked up from some poser chick that was doin some stupid kick on some other chicks back and nailed him in his back and his head, he's hurtin'!!! then after the show, me, chris, billy, austin tyler and aaron went to carl's jr.and inside aaron was askin why we kicked him out and stuff and we started sayin some stuff and we started arguing and at the end he's all "fuck hardcore, your a poser, you think your hardcore just cuz you can dance", everyone started laughing cuz he wanted to be in a hardcore band, and like told us that he loves hardcore so much then he says that, callin me a poser? that kid is full of himself, owell at least i dont half to deal with his shit anymore, lol, omg emily was supposed to leave tonight, i miss her so much, she's gonna be back tommarow night or something, im trying not to be sad but it is sooo hard, like every time i see a couple kissing i just wanna start balling but i hold back, i feel it inside though, it hurts, its been two weeks now, im gonna be so happy when i see her, wee!!! im gonna like just 20 feet in the air then jump on her, lol, cant wait, yay!!! ok well, its bed time, this dogg is out, peace. Current Mood: anxious (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 24th, 2004
12:44 am	pretty sick couple days Greak week, yesterday my budie tyler and some of his crew came over and he helped us w/ our song, he's a real ccol guy to come help us w/ our stuff, yah but today i went to the hardcore prom in rancho, it was sick, i was doin alot of hardcore dancing, got hit a couple of times but im good, some guys were fighting then that got broken up, right before bride ordained came on some guys almost started another fight so bride ordained didnt play, i met the band it was coo, i help clean up the place when everyone left cuz during the show someguys took a trash can and kicked it over, disrespecting that place, fags! someguys yelled some comments while i was cleaning up but i know i was doin the right things so who cares, u know, every things been ok but i miss emily so bad, my heart hurts w/ her gone, i dont know if u know what it feels like to get really close and have her pulled away for 2 weeks, it sux, gosh i love her, alright, peace out. Current Mood: thankful (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 21st, 2004
9:31 pm	blank sup, im back!, not that anyone cares, well i went to work for 8 hours, it was fon,ooo i have some news, my ugly curly hair is strait now, yay!!! i love it i can do like everything with it, its coo, but in the hair place some really fat and ugly girl was hitting on me and the worst part was i couldnt move cuz my hair had chemical in it, it sucked, i talked emily today and im happy, we only talked for like five minutes though cuz she was on a pay phone, she walked all the way to the mall to talk to me for five minutes, isnt that sweet, awww i love her, well thats about it for my exciting day, well band practice tommarow, kinda, lol, peace. Current Mood: loved (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:10 am	Hmmmmm Well I finally stopped being so lazy and finally got myself a live journal, yay, well the thing is im in love w/ my girlfriend and we just got back together from our break and then her mom decides to go to oregon and stay w/ her friend for 2 weeks, emily gets back on the 28th, grrrrrr!!, it seems like when things start to go good something gay happends, shes been gone for about a week and im going insane and same w/ her, she has jack all her moms phone cards just to call me, awwwww, well yesterday my bud austin came over and i stayed up till for writing songs on guitar, we woke up this morning and went to his house, we got arbys whick gave me me such a horrible stomach ache, idk what the hell they did to that food but damn, it felt like i just got punched, lol, then i saw his band ghost orchid, austin, tyler, hans, brandon, and ryan, some cool guys right there, i would watch them practice anytime, maybe next time we could get freaky, lol, jk, well thursday at 2:00, aaron, and dave from my band will comeup, austin will fill in for chris our drummer and tyler and hans will be doing some coaching, well thats it for today, comment if u will, peace Current Mood: neutral (Comment on this)